Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Post August Vision

Ready, Set, DIVE in!

In 2003 the Lord gave me a picture of my calling. Meandering down a grey road on some idle Tuesday, I passed a solid concrete mailbox. Sticking straight from the side of this concrete box was a small yet beautiful yellow flower. There was NO tiny dirt crack or anything, just miraculously growing STRAIGHT out of concrete was this beautifully, bloomed little yellow flower. God clearly spoke. That, was me. A flower blooming from concrete! My life, to BE the brightness of the sun, unaffected by it's surroundings. He spoke that He would bring this sunshine of hope, truth and comfort to the DARKEST area of America, and to get ready. SO I HAVE.

By 2006, I KNEW the Lord had called me to Western cultured, Urban youth. We know whatever the kids of America do, eventually becomes the fate of what America does, and we all know whatever America does, the rest of the world shortly follows. The kind of generation we raise here in the States, TRUELY affects the rest of the globe.

WHERE was this “Darkest” place God wanted me to go in order to start manifesting His vision for the nation (young people group) I call the UrbanUnderground; (A modern day church of Acts created and led by TRUE DISCIPLES.) If Jesus began discipling a couple handfuls of young teenagers by educating and empowering them with this Life saving, redeeming, undiluted and potently POWERFUL life grenade called the REAL GOSPEL; I MUST do the same. Christ aligned his disciples lives with His logic shattering Truth by speaking THEIR language and explaining “HIS Way” in a directly relevant tongue, communicating the VERY PURPOSE of THIER life as an individual, as well as in the with those in their sphere of influence.

It has been recorded and confirmed to me in SEVERAL supernaturally "coincidental" ways, that SEATTLE is indeed “the darkest” area in America that this little sunshine is being SENT as of August, at least until Dec 2012. Oh! Oh the irony of little miss east rising Florida sunshine being sent to drowning and DARK west Washington! My job; to instill (in their language) the WHOLE, complete, self denying and LIFE redeeming TRUE GOSPEL, into the lives of what I will call "The CORE" leaders of this upcoming generation. This "Core" group of youth whom I will be leading is meant to become as REAL and influential as Christ's disciples were in their day. However, they are NOT ready. In fact they are probably only 13 years old at this point, and DONT even know who they belong to yet, let alone what Christ has appointed them to do in this rising generation, or how they are to affect THIS nation for THIS time, preparing the Bride for Christ's soon coming return. In fact, I don’t even know specifically which kids they are yet, but I’ve been told by God to GO, get and mobilize them.

It has now thrice been a confirmed prophecy over my life that I am to be “The Mother of nations,” parenting this fatherless generation as I connect the hearts of the sons to their fathers and the hearts of the fathers to their sons; fulfilling the Elijah prophecy that MUST take place before Christ returns for us. (Micah 4:6)

As a child of what I refer to as, “The Hallway" (1985-1995) I grew up in the transition between the "good old days" and the "individualized new age." I am old enough to remember how things "used to be" relate to and understand the adults, yet young enough to engage and effectively communicate with the radically different "Millennials." I've been anointed, appointed, directed, trained and am almost ready to get out there and DO THIS! But, I still have much more to grasp and learn throughout this year before I am released.

If you are ready to take my hand and stand with me, as the Lord uses me to reach the hands of our children, the youth of this nation, PLEASE DO! We are living in the MOST exciting and urgent time of history! Thank GOD for the role we can now play in HIStory!

So in conclusion I bid you, Riddle me this:
If even the turtle doves had to be sacrificed in pairs, and God saw fit for Adam to be with Eve before ruling the earth together as the unit of His complete image; and if I am to be the Mother, parenting this young people group,,,,, I think there’s something missing here don’t you.? Well,,, APPARENTLY God thought so too! APPARENTLY, I can’t accomplish this calling alone! Go figure!_That we would need other members of “The Body” in order to accomplish His work on this earth…

BIG NEWS coming up, so STAY TUNED!!!

Friday, July 24, 2009

Update July LA Encounter



What does success look like for you? What’s on top priority? The GOAL, The ambition, or glorifying God? Because if it’s career, I will do anything to get it, and compromise those I’m meant to reaching along the way.

Reality CHECK,,,,
God doesn’t NEED me, or any of us for that matter. He could do it ALL himself if he wanted to. Career is just my means of transport.



The time for Christians to enter media couldn’t be better; it’s like all the right circumstances are breaking open for me to do this.Technology is affordable, there are gap’s in the industry due to the new emerging INDIE realm and writers with a fresh voice, who are capable of directing. Producing are being sought out by the MAJOR studios. Even now, churches and communities can fund a feature film themselves if they get the right production players, and get it distributed Nation wide.



When I was in LA, it was sad to hear from both believers and non believers in the industry that THEY and those they work with NO LONGER want to even work with Christians because of their shady dealings, laziness, and arrogance. Terry Botswick, former vice president of CBS, spoke on the personal qualities and professional skills it took to make it out there and deal with the cut throat business it is. He openly confessed how the business is completely unfair, and there is NO honor among thieves, especially with the Christians. He talked about the huge amount of passion and tenacity it takes to push a FEATURE FILM boulder up a hill and where the money really goes, and how you really come out with next to nothing in the end anyway, so you better LOVE and be SURE about the message you are sending. He spoke on the mistakes made by film crews and financiers on movies you have probably watched that SUNK and went bankrupt, why it happened and how to avoid it.

We spoke a lot about the poor vehicle film has provided for sharing the gospel realistically to non believers. When is the last time you saw a video that effectively communicated the GOD of the Bible in a clearly understood way to the unsaved mind? Film is NOT a vehicle for providing answers, but a FABULOUS vehicle for provoking the RIGHT questions. This comes through the writing, directing and producing. ALL the things I have been trained to do.

We spoke on ambition VS God’s calling on our lives, it’s like the difference between murder and killing,,,, where is that line? The difference it the MOTIF behind it. IT MUST be for the love of GOD and His people with FAITH as your currency of dealings.

What do you do as a Christian and how do you negotiate with people who will use tools and weapons you refuse to use as currency? You CANT learn that in a classroom. That’s why I’m soo glad I have been blessed with being at CCM!

I don’t know exactly HOW God is going to bring about the message through media he has put in me to share, but I do know he is BIG enough to do it however, and to reach whoever he chooses. And HIS ability to lead me is BIGGER than my ability to follow. I know that I am seeking to follow him, and I will push till the cows come home, make NO money and STILL wake up and say, “I wouldn’t want to do anything else.” Glorifying God HAS to be ON top of going after the career goal. I saw some graduates who struggled with this and am glad I saw it ahead of time.

I will write you soon regarding what is happening here as we prepare and write, and focus on pre production for this years ATF. ALSO, I graduate in 15 days. Yes that’s right two years will be up in 15 DAYS~~~!!! Then I will be starting this new season of training in the YOUTH MINISTRY track, where I will also be mentored by the head of marketing, and development, a KEY foundation to business I will need for the entertainment industry in order to produce the film God has put on my heart to reach the youth of this nation.



MUCH CARE!
Peace and Passion!
Your lil sister in Christ!

Friday, June 12, 2009

I Need The Rest Of The Body

I have one appeal to make to you my friends.
I found out last week that I am majorly behind on what it actually costs for me to live here and give my ALL to the Lord through this ministry which is lighting fires, equipping communities, youth leaders and transforming teen lives all over America.


They have been more than gracious by allowing me to stay due to God's grace positioning me as one of the MAIN producers for Aquire the Fire media, but they have now informed me that If I cannot fulfill my weekly donation payments that they will have to financially dismiss me.

As you may have read in my previous update the LORD opened the door for me to stay after my CCM Graduation as one of the select interns who will be personally discipled by the nation's most effective youth leaders today. (in order to equip me to disciple in such a way) And due to that, the fact is, that once August rolls around and I begin to apply what I’ve learned in CCM to birthing forth the messages he has put on my heart through the Youth Minister Track; that my rate per month will actually be cut in HALF.

But as of now, I am in trouble. I’ve spoken many times about being a hand that requires the support of the arm, and I just want you to know that I sincerely am soo thankful from the bottom of all I am for your faithfulness to the LORD with the blessings he has given you so that you may use them to expand the Kingdom for His name sake. You have always been there and I have no doubts that you REALIZE that YOU are glorifying God and storing up riches in heaven simply because you are doing your part as HIS body.

If you know anyone who you could show some of our video’s to, that show what I do here at TeenMania, please let me know.


Thank you so much for sharing in my life, God’s life and the work of His disciples. Please contact me if you can help or know someone who would.

Always and Forever
Peace and Passion

Your Media Missionary and Sister in Christ.

Donations can be made by following this link and typyng in my ID # which is 2437082
http://www.honoracademy.com/index.cfm/PageID/2120/index.html



Here is a link to a video to forward to anyone you can think of, regarding the urgency of the hour with our nations youth.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_6nHS-lYHFc&feature=PlayList&p=E44D527365B58ABC&index=0&playnext=1
or just send them to my video website www.youtube.com/VoiceARevolution

God Orders My Steps!

This one is from the heart. Straight from me to you.


As you may remember,
I will be completing my two year commitment at Teen Mania's Center for Creative Media as of August. For quite some time I have been praying as to where God wants me to go and how he wants me to apply ALL that I have learned and grown in while here.


I hadn't told you my plans yet, because I wanted to be SURE that it was from God.
Many "Christians" tell me, "It's lazy and foolish to wait on God. Just start and he will bless whatever it is I choose..." But, my RUTHLESS, ABSOLUTE dependence and trust in who I know him to be, begs to differ. I KNOW that if he cares so much to know how many hairs are on my head, that he CARES where and what I will be doing in HIS STORY. (History)


God has shown me SOO FAR down the road of His plan for me, However! I’m sure in order to keep my ambitious and headstrong self, dependent on Him; He has not shown me HOW this is going to happen! (Hurray for INTERDEPENDENCE!)



I KNOW the lord has put specific messages on my heart regarding this John the Baptist generation meant to prepare the way for his return, and a good washing needed for a pure and spotless bride who is DRESSED and ready with their lamps full; To mobilize an army of young people relentlessly passionate for showing His love to the hurting, dirty, broken, searching youth. I KNOW he wants me to bring these messages in a way that is understandable for young people through NEW MEDIA, music, film, television and internet,,, And the Lord has vigorously trained me professionally and connected me with people who have the same vision.


After months of pictures, passion and peace regarding what I thought would be the next step; To become one of the few ( 10 out of 200 preselected interns by Teen Mania Leadership) to go down an intense youth ministry training coarse where you learn to DISCIPLE young people by actually being discipled myself by the Nations most effective youth ministers THEMSELVES. On this track I'll receive specific training on effectively speaking to masses as well as discipling a community youth group myself under Ron Luce's leadership. I will become certified by the American Christian Counsel on dealing with youth issues such as cutting, abuse, drugs etc. Also, learning to execute THE PLAN that has already begun to turn communities back to the church of the book ACTS.


So, I confidently forged down their week long, boot camp like interview; and to be honest, , , my biggest fear was; Getting chosen, but it NOT BEING WHAT HE WANTED! I was afraid that even my desire to serve him down this path was of my own accord and I was soo afraid that I was the one making the decisions on my life. (BIG NO NO! Doubting God’s sovereignty!)



So I prayed that he would open and close the doors he wanted; And He made me promise that I wouldn’t fight it, or try to defend myself.

The month while I awaited their decision; He surfaced, and violently pruned the performance mentality I realized I was slave to. I needed to TRUST HIM, and desire ONLY to BE WITH Him, not just to serve him. He clearly told me that HE wanted to be the one to raise me up and put me in the circumstances HE wanted me in, so that HE would get all the glory_ NOTHING of my own effort.

Well LO and BEHOLD!!!
I was outright REJECTED. LOL! Not even close to being accepted. Didn’t even make the FIRST CUT!!!!

So I took it like a bullet, confused as to why I would have such clear vision about it,,, yada yada,, and after a week of broken and desperate face time, I came to a peace that was bright as the noon day sun. I was even about to email you to ask if you knew of any music video production professionals in NY.

I was on campus for fund raising while the rest of CCM was in LA; When suddenly!, SURE AND FAITHFUL, LORD GOD ALMIGHTY, sent me a personal email through THE ACTUAL DIRECTOR of the Honor Academy himself, Mr David Hasz.

Let me summarize this meeting for you.

He sat me down, (I can’t tell you the stampede of butterfly’s that were tornadoing through my stomach,,,) He proceeded to ask me questions about my vision in detail and what God was teaching me and why I didn’t fight etc etc. He proceeded in his statesmen like aura to tell me a story of how God put on his heart years ago to become a Resident Director at Oral Roberts University and how if it weren’t for that, he would never be where he is today. He actually got rejected, didn’t even make the 1st cut and by some divine circumstances became the head Resident Director. He then authoritatively told me that the same situation had happened to me. That leadership had made a mistake and God clearly showed that "this" is what I am supposed to do. He went on to state that it would take a few days for him to over-ride any decisions that were made, but I could take this as the the director of the Honor Academy's OFFICIAL acceptance onto the Youth Ministers Track.


Did you catch that? A DIRECT acceptance from GOD through the Director of the Honor Academy HIMSELF onto this select track of training.

I was FLOORED! Just ABSOLUTLY, speechlessly FLOORED.

(How did this happen? I didn’t do anything! I never made an appeal, NOTHING)


He continued,

“Oh and Selah, (that’s the name I’m known as here) I want you to know; This is NOTHING YOU DID.

I don’t EVER have these meetings, I just don’t do it. Someone who never goes to bat for anyone and didn’t know why they were going to bat for you, went to bat for you, and I STILL dismissed the prospect of it entirely until ,,,, Well, let me just say, The favor and grace of God is upon you and He is most certainly directing your path. You can know this is clearly God opening the door because this just doesn’t happen.”

Ladies and gentlemen, I give you the LORD my God and his sovereignty in my life. Let him receive ALL the GLORY!! AMEN!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

May 09

HUGE Abundant GREETINGS with a holy virtual kiss on the cheek!

ME
WOW! You know when you are a little kid, and it seems that over a single summer you just SHOT up like a weed and everyone started telling you you've grown up? Well, I'm not saying I'm all that. in fact, I'll be growing up and challenging myself in the faith till the day I die... However!; with my graduation on the horizon in August from my two year commitment at Teen Mania's Center for Creative Media, The Lord is preparing my jump to the next stepping stone of His Calling over my life to change the hearts of my generation toward HIS.Pray His leading be received on my end.

MINISTRY
This past week, we designed and recorded an inspiring music video for the rising band, THE WRECKING, after having their lives wrecked for the Lord, as well as their impacting desire to see the rest of the youth in America wrecked for Christ. It was amazing working with this passionate band. The song we made the video for is a Call To Arms, themeing the line, "LOVE Is the Resistance!" It was really a gathering of young people who decided to rally behind love as a response to all the hate society dished at them.



I personally helped design and create the jackets the band wore. I also played a main extra role acting in the video. It won't be complete for a few weeks but I will definitely keep you posted, and hopefully you will be able to point me out lol! I have no doubt that this video will inspire young rockers around the country to Respond to the world with love when they are hated on.

NY BATTLECRY



Here's a behind the scenes video I'm in from our first blog in NEW YORK for Battle Cry. http://www.vimeo.com/4204842
I almost forgot! our 14,000 teen gathering in NEW YORK!!! Here's the highlight video. WE ARE MISFITS! AN army or misfits! BE the MISFIT GOD CALLED YOU TO BE!
which by the way aired live across the whole nation reaching over 40 thousand kids at home.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3xANEEVbTeE

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Professional Writer

This week CCM is being trained by Jeff Holder: A professional screen writer from LA whom we met and learned from at a seminar on the LA professional encounter in December.
He writes for television shows and features.

He has now come here for three days to teach us more in depth, the reasons, systems and functions of the stories that make it in Hollywood. If you don’t already know, WRITING is WHAT I DO. Writing stories is my absolute favorite thing to do in which I tell stories, bring messages and communicate what God has put on my heart. I know I am going to continue writing on larger and larger scales as God brings me forward in life, so please pray that I get EVERYTHING I am meant to out of this wonderful opportunity here at CCM!

Monday, March 9, 2009

Part of His Plan P2

Our youth DO NOT recognize sin for the destructive cesspool of wrath that is it; Therefore, they see no need for repentance nor the saving grace of Jesus Christ. They have been ignorantly indoctrinated through the public school system, TV, music, books, and magazines; and consumed with a faulty world view through which they view life and reason ALL their decision making on. (Not truth based on God’s Holy Word A.K.A. the foundation of this country)

Bringing correction to these false worldviews and restoring humanity’s TRUE original purpose as stated in scripture is critical RIGHT NOW, while we still have the freedom to do so. Bringing HIS Kingdom’s way into manifestation here on the earth right now is our number one responsibility until He returns to withdraw us_ His bride_ with His Spirit from the earth.

The TRUE gospel and the TRUE disciple/emissary is a direct threat to the global union western governments currently have underway. The church as a whole is not talking about the signs of the times that are right on our doorstep nor do they want to hear about how WE as the BODY have LOST our saltiness (our ability to make the distasteful things acceptable to God, and our ability to preserve and restrain corruption/lawlessness in the land) Jesus warned us (Mat 5:13) that if we loose our saltiness we are good for nothing but to be trampled on by man, and the very same evils we did not restrain and conquer. Divorce, Fornication, Murdering babies, Adultery, Idolatry, gluttony, anger and division are often more common in the sphere of believers than nonbelievers!! WHAT IS THIS?

BARNA states that about 80 percent of my age group who claim to be Christians DO NOT believe that surrendering their life to following Jesus’ way is the only way to heaven. We don’t believe in absolute truth,,, the word of God itself has lost its potency and sovereignty in the lives of young people as a whole. It also states that over 90 percent of “Christian” youth group kids who go to college have completely denied the faith by the time they graduate” and I know some of these graduates who now think people like me are narrow minded, intolerant, unrealistic and of no good for the NEW SOCIETY. Of course, lol I have a different opinion…

My generation is completely ignorant to the times they are in, let alone prepared for what is to come; sooner than we all imagine.

I refuse to let myself or anyone within my sphere of influence (including those reached through media) be swept away by false doctrine that exalts a God of Peace without Justice, Works without Faith, or the Grace of the Lord without the FEAR of the Lord. THAT god is NOT MY GOD. My God, the God of the Bible is a HOLY God made flesh for whom we work our salvation out with trembling. But, THAT Jesus is not the acceptable Jesus in today’s culture.

The only way to make the church of America which claims to be the bride, pure and spotless is through the privilege of his discipline which makes us righteous. HOW? How can he make us righteous (AKA dependant and trusting solely and only on Him) when he has tried everything else? 2 Tim 3:12, “You and all that will live godly in Christ Jesus will suffer persecution.”

As of May 7th 2007, Pres. Bush signed the Presidential Directive, making the US an official Dictatorship without the need for check or balance. If you research ( I dare you to read the 2nd Patriot Act) all the legality’s supporting martial law, and the practice of Christianity being considered “terrorist” activity are coming together quite rapidly. Just look at the actions being taken by our countries political leaders. Socialism is on the road to Communism. But hopefully we have not put our trust in the government. I’m not claiming to KNOW this is going to happen, In fact, we should be doing ALL that we can to be SALT and restrain and prevent this. However, as a watchman; I’m simply calling out the warnings of what could be coming. I am not the only one being led by the Holy Spirit in getting dreams and being led into specific scriptures regarding this in America by the Holy Spirit. Seek his heart and he’ll tell you. He never does anything with out first telling those close to Him.

The time for action is NOW, not tomorrow for we all know “tomorrow” never comes.

I, along with Teen Mania ministries are doing ALL we can to penetrate my generation and pull the kids who are playing around the grey lines of fire BACK into the almighty’s arms with WHOLEHEARTEDNESS and complete surrender. According to Rom 12: Conquer with goodness or be conquered by evil.

This leads me to the next step on the road of missions through media. As you know I will be completing my two year commitment with the Center for Creative Media film production track here at Teen Mania come August………

…………And the next letter is coming soon!.....